“ If any man despises me, that is his problem. My only concern is not doing of saying anything deserving of contempt.”
Marcus Aurelius Roman Stoic Philosopher, 121 – 180
Tag: Sharing my experience
Good Morning! 🦉- Filling emptiness with light
Da’at – This term is a reference to the ‘tree of life’ in Judaism. I would like to show my respect by being honest that my reference to this term is of my own philosophical reflections and not at all coming from a comprehensive understanding of the ‘tree of life’.
As empty as you feel is as whole as you could be. There is a Chinese proverb I came across that said the ‘usefulness in a glass is in its emptiness’. What this meant for me was that the parts within me that feel empty can be filled with light, which is as vast as my emptiness. Exposing myself as I say this, growing into my adulthood from adolescence I had an emptiness within me when it came to connecting with someone emotionally. The cup for this is not that big, (as there are various ways for one to be nourished emotionally) but it was still difficult to fill and with that, it was hard to feel enough. Recently I got into contact with my qualified, personal coach (which she does not get paid for but commits to) and I have known her for about 5 years now. Two days ago, she let me know that she was going to stay in my life after our sessions and has expressed her genuine desire to support me as a person.
When I was not showing growth or results people close to me paid no mind to me; when I was compromising my time and energy for the ones I cared for and asked for it to be reciprocated I was not heard. In the past few months when all I had was ambitions but not the energy to achieve them there was only one person I can confidently say stood by me and that was her. I am grateful that I let go of those who had left me feeling helpless, uncared for and powerless because it made space for people who poured empowerment, support and affection into my life instead.
Respect the emptiness you may harbor as you can watch it be filled with “light, purpose and mission”.
Good Morning! 🦉- Stroll
Usually, I would take strolls in the Morning or Evening when there are far fewer people , so I can get the solitude that I wouldn’t usually get at home. However, yesterday afternoon I needed a mental break, alongside the desire to regulate my emotions I took my mask and my phone and took an intentional stroll; I could feel myself rushing to head to a more quiet area that I knew of but, I suddenly started to slow down, realising the golden hour. I changed my mind to head home to sit in the children’s park to watch the sun go down amongst the laughter and the chatter of kids, families and fellow people on their journey. For moments, I was able to think of nothing, which is rare for most adults. I was mindful of how cold I was feeling so I started to head back home; though turning around and seeing this sight kept me longing to stay around and bask that is; my present.
I’ve been having moments like this a lot for me recently. There is a serenity that comes with acknowledging the development of man alongside the strong presence of what is natural and divine. This acceptance takes away the stuffiness I feel when I walk down the street; for a few moments, I can see that the world itself is flawless by accepting the flaws it has. The idea that everything is constant, twisting and turning with an intent.
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