Da’at – This term is a reference to the ‘tree of life’ in Judaism. I would like to show my respect by being honest that my reference to this term is of my own philosophical reflections and not at all coming from a comprehensive understanding of the ‘tree of life’.
As empty as you feel is as whole as you could be. There is a Chinese proverb I came across that said the ‘usefulness in a glass is in its emptiness’. What this meant for me was that the parts within me that feel empty can be filled with light, which is as vast as my emptiness. Exposing myself as I say this, growing into my adulthood from adolescence I had an emptiness within me when it came to connecting with someone emotionally. The cup for this is not that big, (as there are various ways for one to be nourished emotionally) but it was still difficult to fill and with that, it was hard to feel enough. Recently I got into contact with my qualified, personal coach (which she does not get paid for but commits to) and I have known her for about 5 years now. Two days ago, she let me know that she was going to stay in my life after our sessions and has expressed her genuine desire to support me as a person.
When I was not showing growth or results people close to me paid no mind to me; when I was compromising my time and energy for the ones I cared for and asked for it to be reciprocated I was not heard. In the past few months when all I had was ambitions but not the energy to achieve them there was only one person I can confidently say stood by me and that was her. I am grateful that I let go of those who had left me feeling helpless, uncared for and powerless because it made space for people who poured empowerment, support and affection into my life instead.
Respect the emptiness you may harbor as you can watch it be filled with “light, purpose and mission”.
Ester's Eunoia 